Never Letting Go

One thing not many people know about me is that I have a difficult time with friendships. It's always been hard for me to make friends, and the few I had as a child didn't seem to work out (you know, abandonment issues - we've all experienced that, right?). But I've recently come to the realization that I don't let just anyone into my life. I have trouble finding those people who understand me and who can put up with all of my flaws, the ones who truly care about me. But the few friends who have stuck by me through all of my crap are the ones worth keeping. They are the handful of people I have kept in my life, and they are the handful of people I care about more than anything. It has taken a long time for me to realize this, and going through my fair share of rocky friendship has allowed me to understand this part of myself. It takes a lot for me to let someone into my life, to let someone be my friend -  granted, it's not the easiest job, as I am a tough person to get along with (I know, I've lived with myself for many years). But the people who have stayed with me all these years, or even recently made friends - they are the ones I will never let go.